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Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 19:32:25 GMT

I'm SO into Simon Woods (yes, the brother of the hobbit Elijah Wood). Am officially unconsciously attracted to hobbits. Yikes?

Friday, February 29, 2008

Fri, 29 Feb 2008 19:50:11 GMT

Wow it's been ages! Even Xanga has changed (the Add-On thingies and the updates etc etc).

Nothing in particular to blog about today except to announce that: I'm on holiday (wooot!). Plus, I'm obsessing over Iron and Wine right now. Can't get enough of Sam Beam. Found a ton of pictures (plus artwork) of Iron and Wine; mostly album covers. Planning on doing my t-shirt transfer thing again (just so you know I've printed some of my own t-shirts before). They don't last long (on the t-shirt) but its supposed to signify my passion/love for whatever that's printed on my t-shirt (right.). Will have to look for plain t-shirts first. Anyways, back to Iron and Wine; He's a genius, apart from Chris Martin. Too bad Chris is doing a lot of weird stuff with hip hop artists - not entirely attractive stuff, really (e.g. the one with Kanye West; God.).

(Because I've been really free, in other words sleeping all day), I've had a lot of time to think. Something I've not done in a long time (hahaha.. this sounds so funny. Makes me sound like a retard, like I don't think unless I tell myself to think; get it? LOL) WHAT I MEANT WAS that I've not been you know, pondering upon stuff okay?(Shar might conveniently refer to this as emo-ing). Anyways, I realize that my curiosity gets the better of me in most situations. You know how I'm always obsessed with the truth, paranoid, believing that everyone is never telling me the truth and that there are stories/reasons to everything. For example, a story in the newspaper. It's published in the way that it has been published because someone needs something to be hidden. Hm... Not very good at explaining, probably not making very much sense. Well at least I make sense to me. Not like anyone's going to be reading this anyway, right? Yeesh (to myself), back to my paranoia/curiousity-getting-the-better of me-leading-to-my-destruction, I don't know, I just feel like I spend too much thinking about what is real and what is not that I've missed on a lot of things. And of course, I'm also hardly contented. Hm.. You get my drift.

Apart from all of that bull, I'm feeling great and that things are alright(better) now. (=

My favorite song as of this moment. I love the lyrics:

Going shopping later (Yay!). Am approaching bankruptcy tho (can't help myself ]=). Damien rice is soo hot!.

Friday, November 16, 2007

Fri, 16 Nov 2007 05:21:53 GMT

I was looking through my old entries to look for something..

and I realized that I am freaking lame and poyo lar. LOL

I mean, all the terribly gross cam-whoring pictures and the insensitive claims..

I scare myself sometimes.

Gawd.

ANYWAYS, I was looking for this (click).

It turns out that..

Deja Voodoo Spells sent me a message on myspace AGAIN! hehehe

This time a picture comment saying, [and I quote]

"Whoaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....
Happy Birthday !!!

Deja Voodoo Spells"

*KEMBANG/Syok sendiri....

My friend says they just wana get laid. Cheh.

I would like to think otherwise. Hmph...

It's a nice cup of tea and lunch for me now. See yaaa....

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Wed, 14 Nov 2007 13:14:08 GMT

The Longest post yet.

Best picture I got of Azwin Andy (you have to look very closely).

(Not my fault he play drums like mad fella can?)

Or is it this one..?

Do you see what I see? (Andy's face is just behind the dreadlocks thing)

And I think that Radhi Oag is freaking the-Poyo. Hm..

Oh and I've got pictures of Love Me Butch's vocalist/lead singer/whatever his name is I don't know (God, I SO got no respect for people. Will do more research before I blog next time. Internet sucks okay, very hard.).

He loves to buat muka.

Him not very buat-muka-ing. But quite lar I suppose. But I think he's quite stylo. See the way he folds the mic wire, like quite cool. Anyway, Love Me Butch is quite good.

I think Estranged is a lot better than I had expected. Seriously, or maybe they sound better live, crowd and all? Maybe. And I went to their website just now, coz' Reena Omar mentioned (before the band came on) that the vocalist/lead singer (don't know his name again, I only know Andy) was coming on with a new look/hairdo. So, being a bit kepo (actually I was stalking Andy), I saw his picture on his website... WAAAAyyyy better with long hair, trust me.

Anyways, pictures.

(See the lighter!)

Very VERY VERY sad I didn't get to take a picture with Andy ):

And coz' I haven't been updating often (hence being unable to post my camwhoring pictures.. which could also be due to the fact that I didn't have a proper cam last few months), here's like a bunch of pictures of me. Okay, not a bunch.. a few.

Me, in October.. I think.

Me, yesterday at KLIAS having dinner. Putting on quite a bit. It's a sign of happiness (obviously very in denial). Or maybe its the angle. hehe

Still retarded.

Still LOVE to camwhore in the room (=

Still LOVE taking photos.

Okay, I didn't take this one. Faizal did. I was reading National Geographic while waiting for my beef rice (=

Some things changed tho.. More wannabe now hehe. This was also in October.

I'm very stressed up about a lot of things lar right now ):

1. Exams.
2. Exams.
3. Exams.
4. Results from exams.
5. Getting fat and very ugly.
6. I wana go holiday. (stress coz' I'm already in the holiday mood - not going to be able to study properly)
7. I seriously.. no, SERIOUSLY/DESPERATELY need to go and see a band (preferrably COldplay, actually ONLY Coldplay) play live. Hm.. When lar they going to come back on tour. Been trying to log on to their website for the past 5 minutes, no luck. Internet sucks. Sigh.

Very, VERY sad. And I'm Very Very hungry.

Okay.

Just got back from the canteen, got myself maggie goreng double. Not that hungry also. I'm seriously retarded. But I saw this guy in the canteen just now wearing a snow cap, a ciplak t-shirt (the type u get from high school for sports) and a hawaiian print pair of pants. Ew.

Makes me feel so NOT retarded all of a sudden hehe

But still sad about not getting to take a picture with Andy. It's me, my maggi and a bottle of Tiger for me tonight. Bye.

Thursday, November 08, 2007

Thu, 08 Nov 2007 15:28:34 GMT

I just came to say that ...

I just received a testimonial from my buddy

(actually SHE calls me buddy, I refer to her as Agent#2/Lina.. only coz' my boyfriend can never remember who Lina is.. but can remember who my 'buddy' is. So...)

and the testimonial COMPLETELY made my day today.

Sniff.. I really miss ~~camwhoring with~~ her.. ):

and the exams are up!

And I HAVEN'T studied!

DIE.

Wish me luck. *double sad face*

Oh yea... my birthday. My birthday began and ended with me struggling to finish my assignments. Didn't have time to eat or rest even. I finished class at 9, went to have dinner at KFC (in Nilai *triple sad face*) and then went back to my room.

Nevertheless, I got SUPER birthday pressies this year

2 new cameras and a PSP *hehehe*

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Wed, 10 Oct 2007 12:38:45 GMT

Don't it get lonely little darling?

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Wed, 26 Sep 2007 04:42:17 GMT

Love and some versus today.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Wed, 18 Jul 2007 07:23:32 GMT

Cow Stomach Bag #2, GONE.

I was a snatch theft victim yesterday evening. Traumatic event I must say. Very traumatic. However I think I have recovered, except that when I'm alone I experience re-runs of the incident over and over again. Couldn't sleep last night thinking of how things could have been different or how I could have saved my bag.

Thank God I had my car keys held in my hands. I was aware of such things happening, especially in Taiping so I held on tight to my handbag (right arm). I had just finished dinner with my dad and since we came in separate cars and parked at different places, I made my way towards my car. Was kinda dark, 830 already. Walking on the right side of the road, I held my bag on the right side on purpose. However my car was on the left side of the road. I crossed the road without changing the position of my bag but still held on really tight on to it. About 3 meters away from my car, I felt something really near me, looked behind and it was a bike. Next thing I knew I was running along with the bike, still holding on to my bag. By then I had already come to realize what was going on. Coz' sometimes they happen so fast, you've no idea what's happening to you. I ran for about 3 seconds before I fell onto the ground. Still holding on to my bag. The idiots(one was riding, one was holding my bag) were so desperate, Idiot#2 was still holding on to my bag. I was dragged on the ground/road/gravel/whatever for a good 3 to 4 seconds. Didn't feel any pain at all but at that time, it was all about saving my bag. Thankfully I thought of the consequences of holding on to my bag. Was very afraid of injuring myself badly and after about 2 seconds of thought, I let go. Fucker took my bag!

All of this happened within seconds but it was too late, my dad had just driven out of the parking lot and a friend who came to have dinner with us was already at the junction. My first instinct was to call her since my phone was already gone. Ran as fast as I could, screamed her name but she didn't hear me and so she just drove off. Sighhhh...

Went to the burger stall, asked the girl if I could borrow her cell but she said she didn't have one. Told her my bag was just taken so she gave me a few coins to call my dad. By that time I could really feel the pain. My left elbow was starting to bleed really badly.

Funny thing was that at the car park, there was this 'jaga kereta' fella who just stood there and did nothing. I remember standing up to realize he was just about 5 feet away from me. Ridiculous, he's such an idiot.

Well it's not actually the bag really, it's what I have in the bag. Blogging about this right now is making me sad. I lost my wallet and a whole lot of stuff IN it - a lot of nice pictures and important documents. Lucky for me I only had about 6 ringgit left and about S$20.. which amounts to about RM50. Bearable.

But I also lost my phone. I loved my phone very very much (even though I didn't seem to treat it very well).. But I loved it ok? I gave the thieves the whole set, newly charged phone with a bunch of good songs in my memory card, cam-whore pictures of myself and very good earphones for his listening pleasure. Damn bastards.

Sigh.. Along with my favourite compact mirror from Singapore, a lipstick, travel size perfume, a 256mb thumbdrive and some more junk; i also lost my keys. College keys. Which also means.. I lost my Coldplay keychain!! ): Gone, and lost forever.

Still in the process of re-doing the important documents. Took photos for my drivers license. Got a new sim card etc. Still, my phone ): My Sony Ericsson phone. Sigghh.. Was I really careless or it was just my bad luck? After playing back the damn incident about a million times in my head, I wish I had thrown a stone or kicked the bloody idiot off his bike. But then again, I'm quite thankful I'm not severely injured. Thank God I could let go off my bag and not get dragged for 100 meters or something coz' that would have been awful. I've heard of people knocking stuff and dying. That would be shitty, coz' I don't wana die. Not now.

Got bruises on my body and aches at a few places, very minor. It's back to the books for now. Just thought of blogging about this for personal reference in the future. Back to the books. Got loads to do tomorrow and I'm way behind time in studying for my exam. Thanks to the two assholes. Please text me okay? I'm still using the same number, but all my contacts are gone. So.. k chao..

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 19:09:56 GMT

Long overdue for an update. Anyways been busy and lazy, okay mostly lazy. Am back home in Taiping; supposedly on my study break but it has mostly been a lot of Skype and the idiot box. God, I LOVE the Teevieee.. It's like, a gift from the heavens. It never fails to entertain me and make me happy. Isn't that a real gift in which all of us should be really thankful for? (*whispers, thank you..). And of course you make me happy too. *Cough. (:

Okay apart from the Teeviee, I've been doing a lot of gardening and entertaining my dog. And entertaining the gazillion mosquitos we have here in town. Tough job really.

I think I have officially lost my mind.. Sorry this is one retarded entry.

ANYWAYS.. these were the things I worked on last weekend.

The A4 sized poster I worked on on Saturday and Sunday. It's for next month's prom in college, which, might not even happen. But I suppose, since they already signed Reshmonu.. the event will be on then.

These were taken at my Mum's garden with a Canon PowerShot A700. Pretty decent camera, not mine obviously.

This is my Mumsie's garden. She likes the jungle-ee thing with lotsa flowers, I like it too. It looks duller than the original photo. Why ah?

Random thingies. I forgot what these were but if I'm not mistaken these are flowers of the Tea Tree tree. Okay, Tea tree. You know the sabun thing for acne?

My Mum hates these animals. She says they kill her plants. I took pictures of them anyways coz' like ants, they're so photogenic!

Photogenic right?

Right?

Rigghhttt? *think too high contrast d, another lame effort in making my pictures look nicer.

Okay, random. I sorta liked the sorta symmetry-ness of the flower.

Lazy already, bye.

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Sun, 17 Jun 2007 19:09:40 GMT

It's getting more and more difficult with each passing day.

One word of advice, choose whichever(option) is most important to you and leave the rest behind. And don't look back. Will help a lot.

As for me, I'm losing my way in this long, winding journey. It's getting very tiresome.

Somebody please help me find my way. How did I get to this?

Look at how they're judging each other, trying to impress one another.